Is it possible to find a soulmate in this webjam of blog and delight full of love, hope and dreams of what lies ahead in the future? That I don't know. I already tried other dating sites but that did not work really. I will stop here for few weeks or so and see what happened. But one thing for sure, I will enjoy the fun of going through life experiences no matter what it is. We are here for are reason, to play hide and seek and see if we find our soulmates really.

My Life

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The Cocoon

My dear blogger and friends, it’s hard to write on something and be on hiding especially when what you are writing about is about your life story which you intend to be made into movie production in order not just to help yourself but help others especially those who you love the most achieve their dreams.

What is a cocoon? By just goggling it’s a protective case of silk or similar fibrous material spun by the larvae of moths and other insects that serves as a covering for their pupal stage. As a human being would it be possible to be in a cocoon stage? In short when you are adult, is it possible to get back to be a baby? Is it possible with the matured intellect to go back to innocence. Is it possible to be just in the realm of God when everything in your lifetime, all has gone wrong?

Yes, it’s possible, but then you on the cocoon stage will be looked back as emotionally unstable and required to have medication. Many on the cocoon stage are locked in mental institution. Frankly, doctors don’t have any clue what’s going on when someone is in cocoon stage. But because they are the so-called authority – they have the power over someone who is in cocoon stage.

Someone in cocoon stage will come out much better after the camouflage has been removed. Like a butterfly, someone in cocoon stage comes up quite nice even in fact such person could be just pretty average.

When someone went to cocoon stage, such person has enormous knowledge, knowledge beyond comprehension because that knowledge comes from God. God’s of existence is imparted in that person. But while in cocoon stage, that person has to undergo transformation and in the process of undergoing transformation, that person will be emotionally unstable. But after the process of going out of emotional instability, that person knows exactly, what he/she wanted out of life.

Yes, I went through cocoon stage and quite frankly, not everyone is capable of going through cocoon stage. It’s a freaky process where everyone around you could be just as your very own enemy and at the same time could be just your friend. It takes trust in the Creator that I will get out of cocoon stage and stand up triumphantly in this world.

To be in a cocoon requires innocence and it’s similar to like being a baby but with a mind that is hard to control. Anything that is done is based on instinct rather than that of rational mind. It’s like a virgin baby who knows nothing but knowledge of existence. The so called emotion does not even come into play except when the surrounding is disturbed by outside forces such as the environment.

To be in cocoon stage requires guts that in the end of it, a person is able to go through life with much more dignity and courage, with much joy and pain is put down slowly, with liberty to see the potential of its very own existence.

Again, my dear friends are you willing to sacrifice your so called status to get to cocoon stage that would allow you to have the courage to change yourself and your environment. Are you willing to even lose your job and them to yourself, its better this way? Are you willing to face the outside world who thinks of you as lunatic?

My dear friends frankly not everyone has the potential to get to cocoon stage because simply they lack the trust in the Creator. How many of us who could say I know God. Many of us fantasies God by saying to themselves they really love God. Huge amount of money goes to churches around the globe in the fantasy of loving God. If someone really loves God, they could say to themselves, we are one, and somehow live with the knowledge that God existed in every vein of our body.

I ask you again, what is the thing that is there, immeasurable, has no end, frightening, in the beginning it’s there and in the end it’s there? Light, no, no, no no. Now you will be frightened this time, because the thing that is in between every single cell of your body and exist even when the time that we know existed and no end to it is no other than the darkness that we call evil. Mind you, because we do not know darkness at all. And frankly, that is only a characteristic of God. Imagine if we know the real God.

We call God in many ways from Jesus to Buddha and then there’s even a time that we call the sun itself as God. What we don’t understand is this, is that God comes to people in cocoon stage, God gives them insight, strength, gives them knowledge of existence and this knowledge is sometimes very hard to comprehend especially to people who has no education. And may end up delusional because of the overpowering knowledge they receive for God.

Don’t get me wrong my friend, we are not the chosen one, but we, those in cocoon stage are willing to learn from God without too much question coming from the mind. We are willing to let go and tackle challenges never done before. Jesus did that and how great he is, but he very knowledgeable right from the beginning because he used to challenge the priest.

What I am saying is this, please don’t judge me because basically you only know I got sick, but what you don’t know is that I really learned a lot, a real lot that even at my grave yard there is no question, I will not be afraid to die. I don’t want to die, but I’m not afraid of death because I know how God transforms me and that could be you too, my dear friend if you only know how to listen to your own transformation.

Yes, we are here to love and be love and that’s one of the greatest thing that God has given us because our make-up itself is that we all have soulmates similar to Adam and Eve where a part of Adam was taken out to become Eve and they were soulmate. But with type of sorroundings we have, it’s hard to locate our soulmate and we get dilusional many and many and many times.

Yes, my friend we are just to be patient, don’t rush out, make friends not enemies. Don’t worry too much because life is not meant to be worried. And even if we love and lose, learn to let go because who knows something around the corner can just pop into your life.

Hey, don’t try to push yourself into cocoon if you are not meant to be there, you will end up crazy and might not recover at all.

 Secret Letter Unveiled

Written Over a Year Ago

We hardly have time to talk when were together so I am e-mailing you.

It's true that I used meditation not to face reality. And that reality was that Paul left for good. I created a new reality where I basically don't want this life anymore. All I wanted was to be able to live with God, who I believe was inside of me. I existed because I didn't want my son devastated if I die out of my own creation.

Living with God and trying to find God inside of me is a notion that started way back when I was 15. Because I was into mysticism, I experience something extraordinary. Literally, I was out of myself. There was a period where i can't distinquish past, present nor future. I was seeing and hearing things that were not of existence. I felt it in my bone that my life started way back in time.

Way back then , I saw people going to certain room or something and come out beautiful. I saw people, having coloured hair. I was seeing things that I can't understand why I was seeing them. There was this girl, just an ordinary girl. She was loved by an older man but this girl just won't grow up. This older man waited for this girl to grow up for a long long time, but she remained so innocent that won't just grow up. In the end the older man left. This girl was so devastated. I weft for this girl and I even gave her a name, Rowena, a lover of nature.

That girl, Rowena, was no other than me. I saw my future way back when I was 15 and out of ignorance I was unable to stopped it from happening. Now, plastic surgery is common, coloured hair is common.

Then, I said to myself, I have to live a normal life. So when I was given an opportunity to go back to school, I just did exactly that. For some reason, I choose to study chemistry and graduated with very good mark. I did taught chemistry in an high school and yet I was so unsettled. Then, I went searching again. I went from one religion to the next. I even set foot on scientology and Hare Khrisna temple. But I can't find anything so I started reading books on meditation. I followed a light technique. But trouble started again. There was a point where I lost myself again. I was yelling and I was so so strong that no one could hold me back. My two brothers and my sister's boyfriend and my sister was just managing to pin me down. In the end they called for the local priest.

I had to basically go through what is called exorcism, trying to cast the demon out of me. Those that were present during my exorcism are a nun, a priest and people with extraordinary gift who has sixth sense. I know what's going on but somehow I could not stopped myself. Eventually, I calmed down after two weeks.

When I recovered, I became part of the group who have sixth sense. The group hold classes for people who have interest in exploring their sixth sense. I was put on a test where this guy asked me to how much money he got in his pocket. I told him exactly what he got. I don't know how I did it, I just did.

But the head of the organisation got interested with me. He wanted to go to bed with me and that was the end of the story. I did choose to leave.

This is my well guarded secret, Rob. I told you bits and pieces but that's all. My brother's and sister kept my secret because it's a psychological issue that is hard to comprehend.

When Paul left, I did choose to live for God although I tried to find other relationship so that I just can forget the pain of separation.

mY LIFE

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sOULMATE DILEMNA

hELLO, MY FRIENDS, AFTER DISCUSSION AFTER FREEDOM UNIVERSITY WE REALISE THAT WE DO REALLY NEED A PHYSICAL ORGANISATION LIKE FREEDOM UNIVERSITY WHERE WE COULD DISCUSS ISSUES SUCH AS SOUL MATES.

tHAT’S ONE OF THE HARDEST THING IN NATURE THAT WE HAVE TO FIND. sOMETIMES IN THIS LIFETIME WE HAVE SOULMATES, THAT’S WHAT WE SAID TO OURSELVES, THE REALITY IS WE ALL HAVE SOULMATES. sOMETIMES THROUGH OUR INCARNATION WE END UP HAVING MORE THAN ONE SOUL MATE IS THAT POSSIBLE, NOT REALLY, WE END UP WITH MORE THAN ONE PARTNER BUT ONLY ONE SOULMATE THROGH ETERNITY.

nEVER BEFORE IN THIS LIFETIME THAT WE HAVE TOO MANY DIVORCES HAPPENING. IT’S BECAUSE IN THIS LIFETIME, WE COULD NOT EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT WE ARE REALLY LOOKING FOR, SOMETIMES WE ENDED UP SAYING TO OURSELVES WE JUST WANT A PARTNER WHO WE COULD CONTEND WITH.

bUT THE REALITY IS, OUR SOUL WHICH IS THE CONTROLLER OF OUR DESTINY IS CONTROLLED BY THE MIND AND IN THE END, THE MIND WINS AND JUST SAY TO OURSELVES, YES, i JUST WANT A BRIDE, A GROOM THAT i COULD CONTEND WITH.

i NO LONGER WANT TO FIND MY SOUL MATE, BUT DEEP INSIDE THE SOUL WHICH IS ENCAGED BY THE MIND IS CRYING, AND LOOKING FOR IT’S SOULMATE.

DO YOU THINK THAT WE PEOPLE CAN JUST IGNORE OUR SOUL. hOW MANY OF US COULD EVEN THINK THAT THE SOUL HAS A MOLECULAR STRUCTURE.

THE FIRST BOOK, THAT i WROTE, THE SOUL HAS A MOLECULAR STRUCTURE, THIS BOOK IS CALLED ‘rEASON TO LIVE’. ‘rEASON TO LIVE’ IS SIMILAR TO THE BOOK IN THE MOVIE ‘THE PROPHECY’, EVERYONE IS LOOKING FOR THIS BOOK, BUT WHO IS ACTUALLY HOLDING THIS BOOK. yES, i AM HOLDING THE BOOK CALLED ‘lEXICON’ IN THE MOVIE THE pROPHECY. i DON’T KNOW IF MY SISTER HAS A COPY OF IT. i ASK HER TO PRINT IT FOR ME AND i KNOW, ONE COPY WENT TO MY SON ‘lUKE lOWELL SIMM’.

lUKE LOWELL SIMM LIVES IN mOUNT tAMBORINE AND i GAVE HIM A COPY OF THIS BOOK ‘REASON TO lIVE’. i WONDER WHAT HE MEANT BY THE COMPUTER DISPLAY HE GOT HERE, WHICH HE ENTITLED THE ‘PROPHACY’. i WONDER WHAT HE GOT IN MIND.

lIFE IS SHORT MY FRIEND, THAT’S WHAT YOU SAY TO YOURSELVES, BUT IF YOU FIND THE CREATOR, WHAT WILL YOU ASK HIM REALLY? wOULD YOU LIKE TO DIE AND BE BORN AGAIN OR WOULD YOU LIKE TO PROLONG THIS LIFE AND WILLING TO EXPERIMENT IN THE ‘fREEDOM UNIVERSITY’ WHERE NO ONE IS STOPPING YOU OR PREVENTING YOU WITH YOUR EXPERIMENTATION IN ORDER TO PROLONG HUMAN LIFE AND IN DOING SO, WE, YOU AND ME AND EVERYONE IN THIS PLANET IS ABLE TO FIND THEIR SOUL MATE.

THIS WAY, IF WE FIND OUR SOUL MATE, WE NO LONGER SETTLE FOR LESS, WE NO LONGER SETTLE FOR ANYTHING THAT IS VERY LITTLE AND HAS NO MEANING.

WOULD YOU LIKE TO GO INTO HAVING A RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE YOU ARE THINKING YOU ARE RUNNING OUT OF TIME? wOULD YOU LIKE TO GO INTO RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE YOU HAVE DOUBTED THE OTHER PERSON AND THEN JUST SETTLE FOR LESS THINKING YOU REALLY FALL IN LOVE? wOULD YOU LIKE TO SETTLE AND SAY TO YOURSELF, YES, i DID LOVE THAT PERSON BUT THAT PERSON SEEMS SO FOOLISH AND COULD NOT EVEN CONTRIBUTE TO A RELATIONSHIP.

aRE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP AND THEN REALISE, GEE, MY SOULMATE IS OUT THERE, WHAT WILL i DO NOW? NOW i HAVE A CHILD, i’M A MOTHER TO THIS CHILD, BUT MY SOULMATE IS JUST THERE, i JUST KNOW IT. wHAT WILL YOU DO?

hEY, i’M NOT HERE TO BREAK UP RELATIONSHIP, CONTINUE ON, IF YOU FIND YOUR SOUL MATE, WISH THAT SOULMATE A GOOD WISH, HELP YOUR SOULMATE IN WHATEVER SITUATION YOU ARE IN, SO THAT YOUR SOULMATE WILL BE HAPPY.

wHATEVER YOU DO, LEARN TO MOVE ON, LEARN TO LEAVE PEOPLE IF IT HAS TO, SO THAT YOU COULD BE HAPPY, BECAUSE IN THE END MY FRIEND AND MY DEAR BLOGGERS, SOUL MATE WILL CALL FOR YOU.

SO LET’S STAND TOGETHER, LET’S START ‘FREEDOM UNIVERSITY’ SO THAT WE HAVE AN ARENA WHERE THE BRAIN CAN MEET ANOTHER BRAIN, NOT THE AREA OF SCHOOLING WHERE TEACHERS AND LECTURERS AND SO CALLED MASTER CONTROLS YOU.

aT FREEDOM UNIVERSITY WE ARE ALL MASTERS IN OUR OWN FIELD, WE ARE ALL MESSIAH IN OUR OWN FIELD, WE ARE ALL THE CONQUERORS WITHOUT ANY CONQUEST IN OUR OWN FIELD. aND AT FREEDOM UNIVERISTY WE WILL LOOK FOR SOMETHING TO SOLVE THE PROBLEM OF SHORT LIVES, WE WANT TO PROLONG LIFE SO THAT WE COULD FIND OUR SOULMATES.

iS SOMEONE OUT THERE WILLING TO DREAM, TO ACHIEVE A GOAL THAT IS HARD TO DO, OR ARE YOU THAT WEAK AND COULD NOT COPE WITH NEW CHALLENGE? iF YOU ARE THAT WEAK, THEN JUST GO TO ‘OPEN UNIVERSITY’ IN AUSTRALIA, THERE’S A LOT OF VARIETY OF COURSES THERE FOR YOU, BUT IF YOU HAVE OUTGROWN OPEN UNIVERSITY THEN WHERE WILL YOU GO?

hERE’S A PROPOSITION, LET’S START FREEDOM UNIVERSITY SO THAT WE COULD DEVELOP A CULTURE OF BEING FREE, A CULTURE TO EVOLVE OURSELVES, A CULTURE WHERE WE COULD ACTUALLY BE THE CONTROLLER OF OURSELVES AND BEING CONTROLLED BY SO CALLED MASTERS SUCH AS DOCTORS, LAWYERS, PSYCHOLOGIST WHO HAVE VESTED INTEREST IN PRESERVING THEIR POSITION.

lEARN TO DIVERSIFY WITH YOUR WORK, BECAUSE SOONER OR LATER, FREEDOM UNIVERSITY WILL GROW AND PEOPLE WILL BE ASKING, WHERE IS THE SOLUTION TO CANCER WITHOUT CHEMOTHERAPHY, WHERE IS THE SOLUTION TO OLD AGE, WHERE IS THE SOLUTION TO POVERTY, WHERE IS THE SOLUTION  TO BEING IGNORANT?

cAN YOU SEE MY POINT, MY DEAR BLOGGER, BECOME PART OF ‘FREEDOM UNIVERSITY’ OTHERWISE YOU CAN BE LOST.

aRE YOU GOING TO SETTLE FOR LESS AT THIS AGE OF YOUR LIFE, OR ARE YOU GOING TO SETTLE FOR MORE? aRE YOU WILLING TO BE YOUR OWN SCIENTIST ON YOUR OWN TABLE, EXPERIMENTS WITH THE FOOD YOU EAT, OTHERWISE NO ONE WILL DO IT FOR YOU. iF SOMEONE WILL EXPERIMENT WITH THE FOOD YOU EAT, THEN YOU REMAIN THEIR SLAVE. tHAT’S NOT THE PURPOSE OF FREEDOM UNIVERSITY.

fOR YOU TO BE A PART OF FREEDOM UNIVERSITY YOU HAVE TO BE FREE AND NOT A SLAVE, NOT EVEN A SLAVE OF YOUR OWN MIND, OF YOUR OWN OLD CULTURE. fREEDOM UNIVERSITY IS FINDIND NEW WAYS, TO pROLONG LIFE, NEW WAYS TO EARN AN INCOME WHERE IN THIS ERA NOW, WHERE SOCIAL NETWORKING WILL BE THE GO. pEOPLE WILL SOCIAL NETWORK TO EARN AN INCOME AND THE ELITE WILL BE REWARDED, BUT THEN THE ELITE KNOWS THAT EVERYONE WILL BE REWARDED FROM THE TOP TO THE BOTTOM.

hOW COULD SOCIAL NETWORKING BE THE WAY TO EARN AN INCOME, INVESTIGATE, LOOK AT YOU, NO MATTER HOW RICH OR HOW BIG IS YOUR INCOME, YOU ARE LOCKED IN A CELL. THE HIGHER YOUR INCOME IN TRADITION WAYS, AS HEAD OF CORPORATION THE MORE YOU ARE AFRAID THAT SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN TO YOUR LIFE, BUT LOOK AT THE HIGH INCOME EARNER IN NETWORKING, EARNING MANY TIMES AS THE HEAD OF CORPORATION, THEY DON’T FEAR FOR THEIR LIVES, BECAUSE THEIR INCOME COMES SOCIALLY.

sEE MY POINT, WHEN THEIR INCOME COMES SOCIALLY, THERE’S MORE CHANCE OF THEM, FINDING THEIR SOULMATE. aND WHEN THEY FOUND THEIR SOULMATE, HELL LOSE IS THE WORD, THEY WILL DO ANYTHING TO HELP THEIR SOULMATE WHATEVER SITUATION THEY ARE IN. iT’S LIKE FINDING GOD.

hAS ANYONE FOUND gOD, OR ARE WE JUST IMAGININING WE FOUND GOD. sAD TO SAY BUT VERY FEW FOUND GOD IF NOT JUST ONE IN THIS PLANET FOUND GOD, OR MAYBE TWO OR MAYBE THREE OR MAYBE FOUR, WHAT i AM SAYING IS THIS ONLY A HANDFUL FOUND gOD. THAT’S THE TRUTH.

dEAR BLOGGERS AND DEAR FRIENDS BYE FOR NOW AND SEE YOU AGAIN NEXT TIME. i THOUGHT i WAS GOING TO STOP AT OPEN UNIVERSITY TOPIC LAST TIME BUT THEN THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE WANTING TO DO MORE, CAN YOU PLEASE CONTRIBUTE YOURSELVES, NEXT TIME.

yES, WE MEET, yES WE LOVE, YES WE DEPART, IT’S THAT THE END OF THE STORY? OR ARE WE GOING TO LOOK BACK AND SAY TO OURSELVES HEY, THERE’S MORE TO IT, i’LL COME BACK. SAME IS TRUE WITH THE STORY OF THE PRODIGAL SON IN THE BIBILE OF cHRISTIANITY.

THE PRODIGAL SON CAME BACK AND THE FATHER IS VERY HAPPY. iF YOU GET THE MEANING WITH THIS AND RELATE IT TO SOUL MATE DILEMNA, YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF LIFE.

Gee, myfriends, I just did a google search and there’s the existence of freedom university, in Austria. Here in australia there’s a freedom university for networking, now we have a dilemna, what are we going to call ourselves, we the engineers of long life continuity.

We might as well call ourselves engineers of long life continuity. Is there any objection to that?

 ut the interference from masters such as doctors, lawyers and psychologist.

My dear reader, please object if you find such name offensive. No we cannot just dream, we have to make our decision real for all of us. It’s our inner dream, why not try at least try to make such a dream a reality rather than accept the fact that we die young.

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Freedom University

Yes my dear bloggers and friends, I did went back and check the number of the house at Willow Dr, Hallam, Victoria, Australia. but did not reveal it here for a reason that I don’t want the house to be stoned by passersby.

But it’s too late owner Alex and ‘Boot’s’ de la paz. I abide by Example. I know I will create friends and enemies here, but then at the same time, I will know my true friend. Will I have one? Changes is my friend is my best friend is myself. It leads me to conclude that you can have your good time and I alone maybe and if god does not forbid it, I might be alone through eternity.

Any way, that does not matter, I have done that in the past and could do it all over again.

So here I am, we are nearing the conclusion of this blog. I am here to establish ‘Freedom university’.

Freedom university is a university for anyone who wishes to go to university in any field of endeavour. At freedom university, everyone is a contender. At freedom university you can study anything and at the end of your lifetime or livestimes you can contend yourself to go to the very top and contest my des