It has kind of become who I am. Its me, whether I have liked it or not. Now im starting to tread into the unknown, Im feeling a bit lost. Like if I keep losing weight like this, then were do I fit in with everyone. Where is my place, who am I becoming. People reading this probably think I am mad and dont really understand what I mean.

I have lost a total of 3 and a half stone now and aiming for 13 and half or 14 stone by Christmas.

Jo measured me today. So here goes....

Was                             Now                        Lost

48 1/4 inches                43 3/4 inches           4 1/2 inches         (BUST)

44 1/4 inches                37 1/2 inches           6 3/4 inches         (WAIST)

56 1/2 inches                50 3/4 inches           5 1/2 inches         (HIPS)

TOTAL OF 16 3/4 INCHES OF MY BODY!!!!!

I dont really want to spend out on too many clothes because if it keeps coming off then they will just be a waste of money, so I will have to make do with what ive already got.

Im looking forward to my weigh-in tomorrow, and also its the day that Dan has to take my photos. I know I will enjoy looking back at the monthly photos to see how I have changed. Its all quite exciting!!!!

At the weekend I was clearing out some cupboards, and found my wedding dress. I couldn''t resist it. I tried it on, tiara and veil too!!!! It is so beautiful, but yes even that was quite loose. Especially around my bust!!! I didnt want to take it off though, I had Shannon and Joe following me around the house holding my train up, they thought it was great fun.

 Roll on tomorrow!!!!!

I really want to lose at least 5 lbs this week. The hardest thing for me I find is drinking all the water. I have never been a big drinker, 1 or 2 drinks a day has always been normal. That probably has not helped with my weight (in hindsight (sp)). So I have to really make an effort to keep drinking lots of water.

Me and Dan are off out this Friday, for one of my best friends 30th Birthday. We dont get to go out much together. We've also managed to offload the kids for the night too, so it will be just us, all night!!!!!! Im looking forward to getting dressed up and doing my hair and make up all nice. Im enjoying it more now as I am starting to feel more confident as the weight comes off.

 So i better go now and get drinking!!!!!! 

Obviously 16st 6lbs will be a great acheivment but really I dont think I will be happy till I hit 15st 13lbs. That really will be a biggy for me because I dont think I have weighed that since I was in early to mid teens!!!! 

Someone else came up to me in the playground today and said she couldnt believe how much weight ive lost. Its just another boost getting me along this hard but rewarding journey.

 My CD counciller Jo said we will aim for 4lbs this week, so thats what Im going to do. More if possible!!!

She measured me again and ive lost another 3 inches from Hips, Waist, Bust. So its moving off slowly.

I have not been in the 16's for years, so this is quite a milestone for me.

I went in Asda today and was trying on loads of things, in smaller sizes. They all fit really nicely. Im even getting my waistline back, and my collar bones are showing!!!! It sounds silly, but its such an achievment.

I died my hair darker brown today, and cut in a big side fringe and layered around my face. It looks lovely. I am really feeling good about myself.

Oh and also another thing, I put my knee length boots on today and they done right up. Last winter I could only do them up 2/3rds so had to wear them under trousers. Another milestone. How strange!!!!

I done 22 lengths in half an hour which is good for me as I can only do breast stroke. Little Daisy went to the Crech'e, so it was a little adventure for her too.

Ive booked her in again tomorrow, so I am going to try to do more lengths but in the same time.

I really enjoyed it and feel really good about myself now.

I really want a good weight loss again this week!!!!!!

It is weird thinking in July I was the heavier end of 19 stone and now September and I will be in the 16's!!!!.

 I am really starting to think that I will be slim one day.............

 Weigh-in 5 was ok. Jo expected me to stay the same from where I had gone wrong the week before. She said my body may retain lots of water, but I actually lost 1lb. So that made up for the one I put on last week. So I am now back on track.

Ive got weigh-in 6 tomorrow, and so far my scales show I have lost about 6lbs this week, so thats good. But I always go by her scales.

The kids went back to school yesterday, and quite a few people said to me "oh my god, you can really tell you've lost weight". I was so chuffed. Its a nice feeling.

Also I have now met my 1st target which was to get back to my wedding weight. But due to my cheating I did not make target 2, which was to to get to 16st 6lbs by the time kids went back to school. Hopefully another couple of weeks and I should be there.

I gained 1lb. Which isnt bad considering I went off the rails a bit. (That is still 26lbs lost in total)

Good news, excellent news. Jo done my 4 week measurements and I am absolutely astounded.

2 inch loss from bust (much to Dan's dispair)

4 inches from hips!!

5 inches from waist!!!!!!!!

Oh my god......

I am so chuffed. I am back on track and going to try to make up for last week this week.

Can't wait to tell my Mum when she gets back of her cruise.

 How delicious, but I had my soup. Leek & potato. I dropped some of it on the table as I lost grip of it somehow!!

I weighed my self this morning and I should break even as last weeks weight! I am so annoyed with myself because if I had not of picked at food I would have had a good loss this week. Oh well, tomorrow will tell the truth.......

I am just glug, glug, glugging water now, Hope that helps..........

It is so hard though. Last night my sister cooked everyone a home made lasagne, so I knew I would be tempted. So I got the dog, and took him for a walk for an hour. I think I will try to do this every night at dinner time from now on.

I really dont want to let anyone down especially myself.

Weigh in 3 and I had lost another 6lbs. So thats a total loss of 27lbs!!!! I would have liked to lose 7lbs so that would be 2 stone exactly, but there you go.

Roll on week 4...... I will have my measurements taken and my photos. How exciting!!!!!!!!

Today I deviated a bit. My Mum-in-law and I took the kids on the train to Walton on the Naze, and I was in such a rush (late as usual), I forgot my Milkshake this morning, and I forgot to take a bar or milkshake with me........... So lunchtime, we took the kids to get some lunch and I had a plain chicken breast on its own with a drink of water........ I dont think this should affect my weight too much (I HOPE!!)

I am glugging as much water as I can now to make up for it, so tomorrow the truth will be known.

WISH ME LUCK !!!!!!

1 - Get to Wedding weight again of 17st 4lbs.

2 - Get to 16st 6lbs (3 stone loss) by time kids go back to school.

3 - Get under 15 stone by Mums 50th on October 22nd.

4 - Get into the 13 stones or less for Christmas.

5 - Get into the 11 stones by begining of Feburary.

6 - Be a minimum of 10 stone for my 30th Birthday on March 3rd 2009.

I CAN DO THIS !!!!!!!!!!!!

 I saw my Uncle today and he said it was really noticeable now too, so that made me feel even better................ xx

Cant wait to see what the response is ????????........... XXXX

You cannot beat this feeling I have right now. XXXXXXXXXXX

Anyway, my appointment is at 2.45pm so I will be back in couple of hours to let you all know the outcome. Im dreading it actually............

 But NO, I didn't eat it. I asked Dan to get rid of them out of my sight, so our lovely dog Max got 3 roast potatoes instead of me.

Well, at least one of us was happy.