10:15 AM: Well last night I got in the first fight with Joey. He wanted to go out and I already had plans with the girls to go to a bar in Boston. He told me I am always hanging out with other people and never have time for him. I told him that I am a busy women. I work a full time job and another part-time job, having a relationship with somebody who dosen't even have a car is out of the question. But to top everything off he is sooo needy. He always calls me up, and at the worst times, and when I can't talk he gets fusterasted.

So moving on to a funnier story. Last night as a I was getting ready to leave work my best friend calls me from Iraq. Now my ex boyfriend who is also in his division is also over there with him. Well as I was talking to my friend he asks me "How can you miss someone who you never even met?" I simply replied "Are you talking about kenny?" " I know he has another girlfriend. How did they meet each other?" Ryan simply replied "They never met, he met her off MySpace."

I sat there laughing for at least a good five minutes. I was all worked up over a girl he met off MySpace? Are you JOKING?????

So of course I call up my other best friend and tell her, then go on my MySpace and write to Kenny asking how his cyber girlfriend was? I have yet to get a reply (hahahaha).

Well everyone I must get back to work I have three hours worth the work to do and only seven hours to do it (haha)!! Write back Soon!

3:45: So I have come to the conclusion that I might just have to work for the man of my dreams. But am I willing to work that hard is the question? Even though I never told him...but I am in love with him, and I am in way over my head. I go to bed thinking of him, I wake up in morning thinking of him. Sometimes I feel he is the reason why I am still living. I just done know what to do. I know it sounds silly but I need help. I am sitting at my computer at work and he is the only thing going through my mind. I want to prove to him, show him in some way that I AM the girl of his dreams, and that I would do anything  for him if only he would have me. I put my life on hold for seven months and now I see for what? He screwed  me once but will he screw me again is the big question? Well people I need to get back to work so I will write before I leave.

Peace,

Sara

4:00pm: Hi! My name is Sara. I am a 20 year old female living in the suburbs of Boston. I am currently working two jobs (Hospital and Receptionist at a memory Impaired community). I just lost the on person in my life I cared about, but I guess you can't loose something that you never had. Maybe it's me but latley I have had the worst luck with men. I mean first it was the soilder going to Iraq, then the hot correctional officer, and then.. well I lost track. I have come to the conclusion that ,why should I settle down with one person when you can have eight? And damn it that's what I'm going to do. To help fill the man gap in my life I started to put myself out there and just my luck I am now talking to four different men. One works in Boston, we wil call him Jason. He is older then me and we are suppose to be going out tomrw. for lunch (wish me luck!) The second one is 24 and we will call him Travis. He dosen't exactly have the best job in the work (he works part time in a bakery), he still lives at home, and ok he dosen't have a car. But what can you do? Then there is Josh. He works outside of Fenway Park, and well he is my baseball hookup. I need tickets...I get tickets.Then Last but God I hope not least there is this kid that I used to work with. We have been hooking up fo rthe past I don't know.. six months. We will call him TJ. Now you might be thinking "wow,anymore?" , and the anwser is yes. Now I have been working on this guy, we will call him Eric. Now Eric and I work together and so does his girlfriend, that he clearly dosen't want anything to do with. He used to come in and give me a hug and kiss on the cheeck and say to me "hey baby!" Then one day he text me a message asking me out, and like an idiot I told him that I didn't want him like that because he has a girlfriend. Well that changed and now I do want him, to buy me things and take care of me, that's all. But his girlfriend Amanda is always around him latley. I don't know why but it maybe that she is picking up on something.

4:45PM:  I just wanted to say hi before i go get ready to see Travis, and to say that it is FINALLY time to leave work and go home!!! Well I have to go and get ready to meet up with Tarvis. We are going to go watch a movie together,with our friends. So wish me luck!!! Write soon.

7:45: Well today I worked and worked and guess what?....Worked somemore. I just can't wait to go home and go to bed. Oh today I think Joey and I just stoppe talking for ood. I honestly can't take him alway nagging on me.... You didn't call me back, You didn't do this. BUDDY WE ARE NOT GOING OUT ALREADY!!!!!!!!! But who knows. But I am going to watch some T.V now and go to bed.

Till 'morrow

Sara